Key details
When: October 12th 2025 – doors 4:30pm, I’m on at 5pm!
Where: Crowbar Sydney, 343 Parramatta Rd, Leichhardt NSW
Tickets: https://tickets.oztix.com.au/outlet/event/f3b6cbef-b21f-4906-aed0-375c5433a67e
Time Space Continuum presents Astrodeath
In just three weeks from now I’ll finally be hitting the stage at Crowbar for my FIRST EVER full-length DestroyerMariko show! That’s right, we’ve graduated from open mics and surprising one-off’s, and jumped straight into the deep end! Not only is it going to be a great night of metal, it’s a HUGE night for me, as I’ll be doing a massive 45 minute set including ALL my songs – released and unreleased!! That’s right, I’ve got two brand new songs to debut. At the time of writing, the only place you can get a preview is behind my Patreon cult paywall.
But WAIT, there’s more…!?
Yup, not only has DestroyerMariko finally broken free of the open mic circuit, WE ARE LEVELLING UP!! This is too big of an opportunity for me not to go all out. Thanks to landing this gig, I’ve gotten myself back into singing lessons, invested in some hardcore wireless gear so I can go all out on stage, and I’ve even hired a photographer for the first time in my gigging life!? So I better look the part too, right? After having my Britney Spears shaved head moment post-Schizoid diagnosis, briefly dabbling in all black, and then returning to my natural brown, I’m FINALLY getting my hair done alt again and this time I’m sticking to DestroyerMariko colours, even more so than when I first started colouring my hair. And then (assuming OPSM finally pulls through), I’ve ordered some red prescription contacts, coz WHY NOT!? Legit I cannot wait to perform and show you how nuts I’ve gone!!
From there, I’m also just going to take my solo project more seriously in general, and it’s now officially my main music project. I’ll never be the perfectly polished and compliant musician that the promotional world wants me to be, eg. I refuse to join Spotify etc. But I’m genuinely looking at doing some proper photo shoots, and possibly even getting on the music video bandwagon for my next release that I’m planning for 2026. That’s right, there’s a new EP coming! And I’ve been in talks to get more gigs going next year too. DestroyerMariko is on the move! And not just in the music space. I’ve emerged from my long-term mental health slump into a fresh creative spurt, without needing to take meds, and having finally learned how to self-motivate my creativity too! It has taken so much work and so much struggle, but it feels good to finally make it this far. I am aware of my past habits and ongoing issues of course, so I’ll be keeping an eye out for the risk of burnout, but I have so much more insight nowadays and have learned a lot about how to work within my limits. So yeah, I feel confident enough that I can say THIS is my comeback!!
And I really have to thank Adam of Time Space Continuum SO MUCH for giving me a chance. It’s not easy to get out there as a soloist, especially if you decide not to bring on a live band. You’re on your own, you’re so much more exposed on stage, and even if you get past all that, the heavy scene just doesn’t expect much from you. I’ve been told in the past, by event organisers who were usually so accommodating to newcomers, that unless I had a second person on stage, I was “just doing karaoke” and they refused to have me. It was a really big blow for me at the time, knowing how false it was, not just because I’m doing original material, but because of the energy and choreography and completely sober nuttiness that I bring to every stage, no matter how small. I almost gave up on playing live. I do not fit in at open mics and never have. As fun as it is to mess with that audience, who were expecting chill singer songwriters on their acoustic guitars and keyboards, only to have me with my harsh electronic noise giving them whiplash between my sweet girly cleans and demonic death metal screams… as fun as it is to make those soft ears bleed, I’ve just always wanted to get back to my home in the heavy scene where I belong. To be able to finally do it now, and as my authentic creative self? I am so, SO appreciative!!
Also, to everyone who’s already bought tickets and told me you’re coming… THANK YOU SO MUCH!! It really is uplifting to know I still have an audience after so many years. Thank you so much for being patient with me and my mind. It’s not just that you’re coming that makes the difference either. Having Schizoid Personality Disorder has made it really hard for me to open up and feel certain emotions, but I can honestly say that you’re all making me legitimately feel supported, and I don’t even know how to explain what an important milestone that is for me! My disorder does its best to keep pushing people away, but I am hanging onto this as hard as I can. I may never end up functioning “normally” in this world, but if I can at least give depression the finger, that’s enough of a healing victory for me!!
More details:
If you’d like to know more about the bands I’ll be opening for, you can read more on Time Space Continuum’s page here: https://www.timespacepromo.com/event-astrodeath
Astrodeath are a two-piece sludge-grunge band from Sydney Australia, who sound like the world is ending. Loud, riff-heavy, and brutally tight!
Supported by: The Weight Of Silence, Noveaux, T-Rex Autopsy, and Magma One, plus special guest DestroyerMariko.
You can also RSVP to the Facebook event page here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1195593419004318/
I can’t wait to perform for you next month! See you there and don’t forget to come early, I’ll be on at 5pm!
